Robert Dennis Charles Singer

                This is my boyfriend Robby. Ever since we first met we had such a strong connection that outstood any other connection I’ve ever had with anyone else. I’ve never been so comfortable around a person ever. We hangout every day and it doesn’t bother me one bit. Yes we get on each other’s nerves at times, but he’s become my best friend. We are very alike; it’s as if we are the same person. He is the best person for me and I love him with all my heart. I can’t wait for our future together. I could write a book about this guy.

                Relationships now-a-days have gotten a more serious outlook. More and more young people want something serious; it’s just a matter of a fact if the connection is there and if commitment is there. I’ve been hurt so many times in my life and I’ve realized how things have affected me.  Robby has become my go-to person and has helped me realize that I have more problems with myself than I thought. He’s there to help me through it all and I’m there to help him through his. We’re a team and that’s what a relationship needs. People need to stop messing with others feelings and need to stop using each other. This world needs to accept one another and need to become considerate and less self-centered. In order to have a successful relationship you have to be happy with yourself before you become happy with someone else and I’m trying my hardest to do just that.

90 Pregnant Girls?!

MSNBC

                Pregnancy is such a beautiful thing. Knowing that you a growing a child inside you and that in 9 months your child will experience life. It’s such a genuine feeling. If a pregnancy is not planned I feel like people should use contraceptives more often. Parents need to give more talks about sex and they need their child to be more comfortable about talking about their sex life with them. A lot of girls are afraid to tell their parents about losing their virginity, but it’s important so they can start using birth control and have condoms to prevent pregnancy.

                At Frayser High School there are 90 girls that are either pregnant or are a mother. Now I don’t know these people personally, but this is outrageous. I’m not going to be the one to call these girls idiotic, stupid, or slutty. These girls simply just made a mistake and have to deal with the consequences. I am not one to judge a person, unless if I know them personally and know their intentions. I hope that these girls will become good mothers. It does say in the article that a lot of the students have financial issues, which I do believe is irresponsible if you have a child and you’re financially unstable. Get your act together and start providing for yourself and your child. Most of our parents had children at a very young age so I’m not really upset, but at that mass majority scares me.

Depression

                This is a topic very dear to me. I appreciate it, yet I hate it with a passion.I’m sure every person suffers from it in some way or at least they have in the past. I want to talk about a specific reason for some people’s depression. That is love. Love can kill a person’s spirit and potentially kill them by suicide. Seriously, how many of us have thought of suicide before? I can guarantee that the majority of people have thought about it. It’s a common thought, but not necessarily a common action.

                Depression can ruin a person’s life completely. People eventually lose who they once were and become a different person. They develop trust issues, a sense of bi-polar disease, insomnia, anger issues, isolation, and maybe some anxiety. It can lead to self-mutilation or drug abuse to numb the pain. Intimate relationships that fail and keep failing can make a person believe that they will never be loved and they are not worthy. They start to form problems in their head and feel like there is something wrong with them. The guys that are so-called “players” were once the “good guy” until a loved one lost their trust. The girls that are called “whores” were once the innocent ones and formed problems with their self. People need to start thinking in an optimistic perspective because so many positive things will happen in their life. Everyone deserves happiness; you just have to truly believe that it will occur in your life.

               

Sexual Media

               

                   I think people are exposed to too much at such a young age. I remember being in 5^th grade and the children would bring up conversations about sex. In 6^th grade I even heard of people getting sexually active without having sex. In 7^th and 8^th grade I remember that there were a lot of people having sex and even one girl got pregnant. It’s sad. It’s really sad when you know most girls have lost their virginity at 14 or even younger, same with guys. Personally, guys have more peer pressure to have sex than girls. If a guy is 17 and a virgin, he is labeled as gay, a freezer, lame, etc. if a girl is labeled a virgin she isn’t titled as being a “whore” and has more of an innocent outlook. It’s so common for a girl to be called a “whore” when people know that she isn’t a virgin, but it makes no sense when guys brag about their sexual activities and aren’t ridiculed.

                The media influences a lot of our views of sex and exposes us to sex very easily. Television displays sex like no other, whether it is a fast food commercial, a show, or a movie. It’s hard to find anything without a sexual intent on the television unless if you watch a children’s television channel. With all this sex appeal, it really worries me about what the future will be like and what my kids will be exposed to.

2 in 1 Killed

Daily Mail

This is a story about a pregnant woman getting killed. She died after a car veered off the road and slammed into a swimming pool cabana at the Riverside Hotel in Fort Lauderdale. Alanna Demella was due to give birth in two months. Her husband, Michael was in the bathroom at the time. Witnesses we heard of saying “why why why” as they were pulling off debris off of Alanna. Michael was only left with a couple scratches and cuts.

Accidents like this affect every single person in the incident. Everyone is emotionally torn and slightly physically hurt. Every witness, the EMT, cops, the driver, and Michael are all emotionally hurt in the situation, just on different levels. It’s such a scary thought that your life can end so quickly in a freak accident and your baby couldn’t even experience life. I don’t know what I would do in Michael’s situation. I would be so torn if my boyfriend lost his life in a freak accident while I was near-by almost witnessing it. I give my condolences to every single person in Michael’s and Alanna’s life, even Michael. I hope they can believe that Alanna loves them all and she will be fine in heaven with her baby angel. Grieving is one of the hardest things to overcome, but we all got to realize that the person that died would not want us to be depressed, but they would want us to be happy with our lives and know that they are okay. We will all see our perished loved ones one day.

Big City Dreams Become a Fail

Before California:

After:

Daily Mail

One of the hardest things to go through would be seeing someone you love go through a drug problem. If you are familiar with the show Intervention, you know would the pain these families go through. Satara was raised in Tennessee with the dream of becoming a movie star. When she turned 24 she decided to go to California and peruse those dreams. She talked to her mother every day, until November. In November she was reported missing, but that was far from the case. Yes the person she used to be was “missing”, but physically she wasn’t. She developed a heroin habit and hangs around an older male sex offender.

                This really saddens me and puts an even more negative image of celebrity life in Hollywood. To know that you’re slowing losing your life and your drug is running your life is just a sick thought. She stopped going to her acting classes and basically stopped trying to pursue her dreams. Drugs are a scary thought, not many people realize how bad it can really get. Most people end up hitting rock bottom and feel no need to live anymore. There only escape is the drug that only lasts a couple hours. I wish there was a way to show people that life isn’t all that bad, it depends on how you make it up to be. If we all had a positive view of life, maybe we would be “living” our life and not just existing in it.

9 Year Old Girl Gives Birth

Daily Mail

If you read this article, I hope you felt some sympathy. A 9 year old Chinese girl gave birth to a 6 pound baby in February. I find this to be heart breaking, sick, and just depressing. It’s sad to know that 11 year olds are having sex and seeing 14 year olds brag about sex. I honestly believe that the 9-year old girl was sexually abuse in some kind of way. There can’t be any way that a 9 year old was willing to have sex and get pregnant. The family reported to the police and will not talk about the pregnancy any more. It’s sick to think that any guy would have sex with a 9 year old. We all know that guys hit puberty around 11-12 years old. And even with that being said, it’s more likely that the girl got raped by a much older sick pervert.

                You may think that a 9 year old girl is the youngest age a person had a child, but you’re wrong. There has been a 5 year old girl from Peru that had a baby. This brings me to the thought of when I was in 8^th grade and there was a girl that was pregnant in the beginning of the year. I still can’t believe that that could happen. Even in middle school people would brag about having sex and doing some kind of sexual activity. I find it nasty and sad. There are children having children, what is the world coming to?

Unfortunate Greetings

Have you ever wanted to travel to a place so badly that you prayed for it whenever you got the chance? For example, I always wanted to go to Germany. I’m the only one in my family that has never been and doesn’t speak the language. I used to pay at 11:11 and my birthdays to go to Germany. I wanted to experience what it is like to have grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, etc. Yes I do have my dad’s side of the family, but I find them to be very fake and I’ve noticed that they care more about my uncle’s family than my dad’s. They are never around and I’m perfectly fine with that. I wanted to fill what they have lacked to give me, with my mom’s side of the family in Germany.

Like I’ve said previously, my grandfather had died some weeks ago. This completely killed my mother’s spirit for a while. She is such a strong, tough loving person and seeing her cry really must mean she is so emotionally hurt. In such an unfortunate situation, it ended up becoming a good experience for me. After 10 years of begging to go to Germany, I finally get to in July. I’ve never been so excited than ever. I desperately need to experience another culture, a family, and I need to be put out of my comfort zone. I know that I will be an outcast since most of my German family barely speaks English, but language can’t define love.

Letting Go

When can you actually let go of someone who was once very close to you? I struggle with this on a daily basis and as I’m sure, most people do so. Letting go of someone whether it’s a friend, family, significant other, or even a pet is mentally draining. The reason for letting someone go can be even more mentally draining and physically draining. I’ve never really experienced much death in my life. Recently my grandfather in Germany passed away and I never got to meet him, but in my own selfish way that isn’t even the reason why I have a hard time letting go.

                I’m a person who cherishes my friends, because there are more friends than family. It almost seemed as if I cared more about spending time with my friends than with my family. It was a sad and cold reality. This year I’ve lost many friends due to drugs, time, work, school, etc. I’ve tried to make it work and even they have tried to make it work, but it just doesn’t. Some may say I’ve isolated myself and have become “stuck” on my boyfriend, but that is not the case. My boyfriend has bettered me and has been a better friend than my old best friends.  It’s a hard thing to go through, but can be the best for a person. I can focus on my job, my school, my family, my REAL friends,  and my future career. In the end, you always have to keep your head up.

Tattoos For Me

Ever since I was a young girl, I always adored tattoos. Of course I was 13 and it would be illegal for me to get one until I was 16 with my mother’s consent.  I turned some years older and a lot wiser. I know what I want, where I want it, and why I want it. Tattoos should have some sort of meaning, even if it is some cute little picture, it should be something you’ll adore for the rest of your life.  You don’t want to be 80 years old covered in cartoon tattoos. I fell in love with my ideas. They deal with my life decisions, my battle with depression, and my love for music/lyrics. All of my script on my body will be lyrics that speak to my heart or it will be in German because of my background. I have decided that my first tattoo will be a dream catcher and the words “I’m a dream catcher but nothing but nightmares I caught,” by Tyler the Creator. This is for my depression and how every day was a living nightmare.

I drew up my ex-best friend’s first set of tattoos when I just turned 16. She wanted some type of sparrow or swallow and some heart design. They turned out beautiful and ever since she’s gotten more tattoos. I’m an artist with a creative mind and tattoos can bring out the art that I would want on my body that would consume my image of beauty.